Good News

Sorry to Mistress and the few of you who actually take the time to read this. i have been slacking when it comes to my blog.

   Well exciting news, i have been chatting to a man who actually is excited by my task and has shown great interest in being my first "victim". He has lots of ideas about taking my anal virginity too, so i am very happy about that.He is also Dominant whichj is a huge bonus :)    . A very nervous excitement is building but we have not arranged any dates as of yet.

  On anther front i am embracing my inner sissy. The thought of beoing treated as a girl during a sexual act not only appeals but arouses, so the next step of wearing female attire and maybe make up is only the natural progression. i won't bore you with the details now but the forseeable futre will revolve around serving Mistress, getting to know my Master better and preparing myself for my transformation into Rebecca. I already have my sissy name, now i just need everything else lol.

  That is where you lot can help. i am going to need help with clothes, make up tips everything to make the transition from lowly male piece of trash to sissy Princess. The more comments and feedback i have the more pictures and details and stories i will have for you all, just a little something for you to think about.

  Thats enough titilation for now. i will be back on track and keeping this up to date now that progress is being made.

Bye for now xx

More Thoughts

   There is not much action in the Cock Hunting front at the moment so this entry will be more of my thoughts and opinions in the hope that it will clear my head a little and make me a better slave to my Mistress. An added bonus is that my little corner of the www will give Mistress (most importantly) and all of you more of an insight into how my mind works.

   You may have noticed that i never use capitals when referring to myself. This my own little way of belittling myself. It will hopefully show that i am inferior to all who i will punctuate properly.

   Well after briefly touching on my need to worship cock in my last post i will endeavor to explain myself fully.  i have never felt any urges as i mentioned last time, although there has always been a fascination with shemales, the looks and body of a woman with the cock to go with it always seemed to me to be the perfect package. So maybe i am mistaken and the need to suck cock has always been lurking there. i am also becoming more interested in sissies and Tgirls. This could be linked to the shemale fantasies or just because i sometimes feel that i would like to dress as a girl. i am full of contradictions but also full of stereotypes.

   i like to think that i am fairly intelligent but i thrive on a challenge, i am also active due to my work and interests outside of my slavery. i willingly give myself to Mistress Dawn and follow her every instruction to please Her. i am not a worthy slave, in my previous life i cheated and lied to those close to me. i was selfish, thoughtless and obnoxious.  i no longer want to be that person, servitude is a good teacher as is my Mistress.

  That'll do for now or there will be nothing for next time xx

Thoughts and Fantasies

Here we go again, blog No2.

 After a welcome response from my Mistress to my last post my task is to find a Master or Dominant male to force me to suck His cock. I do not wish to disappoint my Mistress and the thought of being totally submissive to a strong male is a huge turn on. The humiliation of being forced to take a cock and enjoy it is divine, i am getting nervous excitement just thinking about it. The problem is i know me, i need to be forced or i will falter. The mind is weak, i am not determined enough without being coerced, badgered or bullied. No matter how much i want something i will always falter at the last step, it is a fault of mine that need addressing.

Surely a more humiliating scenario would be to be made to worship and suck a sissy cock. To be made to suck the hard cock of a man dressed up entirely for his own humiliation and satisfaction is extremely degrading  in my eyes. Either way it does not matter, i just want to suck cock.

 i have never really had any urges or thoughts of attraction or lust towards another man before and i think that this sudden interest will make me such a keen and hungry cock sucker.

 A long standing fantasy of mine is to be taken anally by a woman with a strap on, if this has anything to do with my current task (willingly undertaken) i am unsure. Even better would be to suck and be fucked by a T/S. The cock is all encompassing and the rest of the body is all woman........ Who wouldn't like that?
Would i be forced to take the cock anally, i hope so. The more humiliating and degrading the better.

That's all for now, i'll be back soon to keep you all informed of my progress   xx

How it all began

Well this is my first post. After being given the task of tweeting "I am my Mistresses sissy sub, and I want to be forced to suck cock for Her" I had several messages of support as well as a couple of shocked Vanilla responses. OOPS.

Well off the back of the interest I have started a search for cocks that I can suck for my humiliation and the entertainment of my Mistress, the beautiful Mistress Dawn.

If you are interested in aiding my search or humiliation feel free to comment or tweet me. i am dawnstoy on twitter.

I have been told to keep this blog updated at least 3 times a week so check back frequently to follow my journey and adventures