At Last

Well here we go. I HAVE DONE IT!!!!!  

After a few drinks on Sunday I decided that on the Monday I would take the plunge.  I went online to find a TV/TS escort in my area.  After making my decision I had a night of broken sleep due to excitement and nervousness.

Monday morning, the day of dread for most people and my day of reckoning.  The morning dragged until I was able to leave to start my trek to the other side of the county. As a few of my twitter followers will testify I was so nervous, but I couldn't wait for this to happen.   A nervous knock on the door at the appointed time led me to the home of the beautiful lady in question. 

I was made to feel comfortable straight away, then the fun began. 

To start with she took me in her hand and then her mouth, mmmmmmmmm  that felt great. After a little more teasing and me reaching down (impatient as always) for a fondle and my first touch of another cock. Obviously I have touched mine lots :)

I had to have it. It looked so good hidden behind the sexy panties. I moved my face nearer. I had to experience it, the smell, the sight, the touch, most importantly the taste.  My first experience of oral pleasure with a cock was to suck on the delicious balls dangling from the secret cloth covering.  I took it from the moans of pleasure that my mouth and tongue were doing good things.

With a deft movement of my trembling fingers, the cloth was pushed to one side revealing the very reason for being in that position at that time.  A wonderful beast of a cock. I took the tip in my mouth, it tasted wonderful. The tip was all I could take at first. My tongue started to lick the length of the shaft. All the time I couldn't take my eyes off my prize. I took it into my mouth again for another try, it felt so natural, but big. It actually made me gag. I thought was an urban myth. That raised a chuckle as I gagged again. I kept trying, and kept slobbering, saliva was running thick down the shaft as both (yes both) of my hand wanked this beast. I couldn't believe what I was doing. hungrily gobbling on cock as my hands worked faster. I was turned on so much that even the moans from willing partner couldn't stop me. I was determined to take as much as I could in my mouth. I had built this up so much in my mind that I had to do it. A beautiful cock in my mouth was what I wanted, and it was what I had. I made the most of it. Whenever she moved I had to hold it or kiss it. Even when she started to suck me I had to fondle her. I was a desperate cock hungry slut that needed satisfying.

The taste of cock is something I can not describe, the feeling of it in my mouth was so good. I need to repeat it and soon. Mistress you were right, I am nothing but a cock whore now that I have had my first taste of meat.  I am hungry for more now, so this blog will be busy now :)

Sorry to my loyal readers, that it has taken so long to update this. The main reason for this is that there has been a serious lack of progress.  I have been chatting to sissies and tv's in chat rooms and been approached by male admirers in the same rooms but time and distance has been against me.

 But don't fret friends salvation has been provided by twitter, (not the first time that has been said is it). A casual conversation has lead to me being taken on by a Master to aid my training.

After seeking permission from Mistress, I have been allowed to continue my training with Him. The plans are being put into place for me not only to continue my transition to sissy, but fulfil my task of being Mistress' cockhunter. Master has also indicated I am to become a cum and piss slut, besides being his fucktoy. Alot of information to take on board I'm sure you will agree, but I cannot wait to start my training in full.

My first task from my new Master is to restart my poor neglected blog, and to get some proper underwear. This means a shopping trip to get panties and hold ups.

The issue I have with this is my domestic situation, having to hide everything either at work (builders merchant so not the most sissy friendly lol) or keep moving things at home to prevent them from being found.

Well that is part one of my task completed, I have kept it breif to leave content for next time, now just the shopping to do. What type of panties to start with? So many questions, also nervous about buying them, is that silly?

Bye for now xxx

Rebecca

A Little Insight

This blog has helped me as a personbecause it has led to an unusual amount amount of inward reflection. I have faced  and come to terms with my submissiveness (always undeniable) , an underlying bi side leading to a willingness to crossdress. Of a more personal nature I have found a huge character flaw (yes even I have them)  :)
   Insecurity, and a need to be accepted and liked. I am finding myself increasingly clingy and desperate. Never attractive, especially in a sub. I understandMistress has many needs, that I can not always meet, so She will need more slaves, that doesn't mean I am redundant or unloved, but the doubts creep in.
  My search for my first cock has resulted in the same insecurities raising to the surface. How do I battle these demons? Does this make me unworthy?, or merely Human?

   Not what you were expecting with this update was it? A deep look into my soul, the darker side of the (sub) human mind. I can only hope that faith in myself and Mistress Dawn will lead to inner strength and peace.

   Returning to my hunt for cock, I am now a regular in a sissy chat room wher I am gaining confidence and knowledge by the day. A sissy clit will soon be humiliatingly on the menu, as well as cocks of all sizes, colours and dare I say shapes ( I know they don't vary that much)  :)

  I will keep you all informed of my ongoing internal struggle and my outward search for my first cock either oral, anal or anywhere else


Thanks for listening

Rebecca xx

Good News

Sorry to Mistress and the few of you who actually take the time to read this. i have been slacking when it comes to my blog.

   Well exciting news, i have been chatting to a man who actually is excited by my task and has shown great interest in being my first "victim". He has lots of ideas about taking my anal virginity too, so i am very happy about that.He is also Dominant whichj is a huge bonus :)    . A very nervous excitement is building but we have not arranged any dates as of yet.

  On anther front i am embracing my inner sissy. The thought of beoing treated as a girl during a sexual act not only appeals but arouses, so the next step of wearing female attire and maybe make up is only the natural progression. i won't bore you with the details now but the forseeable futre will revolve around serving Mistress, getting to know my Master better and preparing myself for my transformation into Rebecca. I already have my sissy name, now i just need everything else lol.

  That is where you lot can help. i am going to need help with clothes, make up tips everything to make the transition from lowly male piece of trash to sissy Princess. The more comments and feedback i have the more pictures and details and stories i will have for you all, just a little something for you to think about.

  Thats enough titilation for now. i will be back on track and keeping this up to date now that progress is being made.

Bye for now xx

More Thoughts

   There is not much action in the Cock Hunting front at the moment so this entry will be more of my thoughts and opinions in the hope that it will clear my head a little and make me a better slave to my Mistress. An added bonus is that my little corner of the www will give Mistress (most importantly) and all of you more of an insight into how my mind works.

   You may have noticed that i never use capitals when referring to myself. This my own little way of belittling myself. It will hopefully show that i am inferior to all who i will punctuate properly.

   Well after briefly touching on my need to worship cock in my last post i will endeavor to explain myself fully.  i have never felt any urges as i mentioned last time, although there has always been a fascination with shemales, the looks and body of a woman with the cock to go with it always seemed to me to be the perfect package. So maybe i am mistaken and the need to suck cock has always been lurking there. i am also becoming more interested in sissies and Tgirls. This could be linked to the shemale fantasies or just because i sometimes feel that i would like to dress as a girl. i am full of contradictions but also full of stereotypes.

   i like to think that i am fairly intelligent but i thrive on a challenge, i am also active due to my work and interests outside of my slavery. i willingly give myself to Mistress Dawn and follow her every instruction to please Her. i am not a worthy slave, in my previous life i cheated and lied to those close to me. i was selfish, thoughtless and obnoxious.  i no longer want to be that person, servitude is a good teacher as is my Mistress.

  That'll do for now or there will be nothing for next time xx

Thoughts and Fantasies

Here we go again, blog No2.

 After a welcome response from my Mistress to my last post my task is to find a Master or Dominant male to force me to suck His cock. I do not wish to disappoint my Mistress and the thought of being totally submissive to a strong male is a huge turn on. The humiliation of being forced to take a cock and enjoy it is divine, i am getting nervous excitement just thinking about it. The problem is i know me, i need to be forced or i will falter. The mind is weak, i am not determined enough without being coerced, badgered or bullied. No matter how much i want something i will always falter at the last step, it is a fault of mine that need addressing.

Surely a more humiliating scenario would be to be made to worship and suck a sissy cock. To be made to suck the hard cock of a man dressed up entirely for his own humiliation and satisfaction is extremely degrading  in my eyes. Either way it does not matter, i just want to suck cock.

 i have never really had any urges or thoughts of attraction or lust towards another man before and i think that this sudden interest will make me such a keen and hungry cock sucker.

 A long standing fantasy of mine is to be taken anally by a woman with a strap on, if this has anything to do with my current task (willingly undertaken) i am unsure. Even better would be to suck and be fucked by a T/S. The cock is all encompassing and the rest of the body is all woman........ Who wouldn't like that?
Would i be forced to take the cock anally, i hope so. The more humiliating and degrading the better.

That's all for now, i'll be back soon to keep you all informed of my progress   xx

How it all began

Well this is my first post. After being given the task of tweeting "I am my Mistresses sissy sub, and I want to be forced to suck cock for Her" I had several messages of support as well as a couple of shocked Vanilla responses. OOPS.

Well off the back of the interest I have started a search for cocks that I can suck for my humiliation and the entertainment of my Mistress, the beautiful Mistress Dawn.

If you are interested in aiding my search or humiliation feel free to comment or tweet me. i am dawnstoy on twitter.

I have been told to keep this blog updated at least 3 times a week so check back frequently to follow my journey and adventures